Seeing the Truth of Life

When I made this collage I could immediately see it was about the story that lived in my head. My fantasies about life from my ego place have me living in a perfection that would be impossible and unrealistic to achieve. I called this collage, "Unrolling the Story." Look at that pristine white outfit and the fabulous legs. Doesn't she look like she is going to a glamorous soiree? I am specially taken with the castle and the perfectly embellished dolls. It speaks to me of the fantasy of a life one day...the dome over the head speaks to me of a subjective certaintly not based in objective reality.

Sometimes it take a while for us to wake up to our life as it really is in this moment. When I wake up to my life in reality I am in my 40's and am slightly overweight. In this moment my rental home is is more crumbling bohemian artist - not at all an opulent castle. The icy trees behind the figure speak of an iciness and an isolation that my individual story brings. It keeps me apart from and in a fantasy state of "better than...and one day it will be better" with what is all around me. Feel yoour love for the unaccepted part of yourself and notice how as you do, you relax more into your life as it is.

Individual fantasies keep us separate and unaware of the objective reality around us. In this way we are not really listening to life. We live mostly in a subjective reality in our own head that really has little do with how our life is actually unfolding. We are usually so busy making impressions and setting personal goals and asserting our personalites onto life we actually do not pay much attention to what life is trying to teach us.

Here are some questions to consider:

Often we are unwilling to accept part of ourselves that feel inadequate and not perfect. If you were to get quiet for a moment, could you admit one thing you are not wanting to see right now in your life?

Can you accept this one thing about yourself today. Try a writing and collaging a page in your journal that is dedicated to this one thing you cannot accept about yourself. Spend the day loving this part of yourself. Feel the reality of this aspect of your life and surround it with love and acceptance. Ask this part of yourself what it is teaching you. As you embrace this part of you more and more, notice how you begin to relax into your life as it is.