Female Sexual Expression

When I walk down the street I sense into people's deeper sexual essences and I wonder...how much is that person being themselves? I often think about how as a young teenage girl I felt pressured to be "nice" at all costs.

In my daily life I still catch myself trying to fit in and I get angry about it. I think I love expressive art so much because it pushes me to be braver and braver in my expression....to be more daring in my dailiness...to take more risks with people.

I have this "librarian" sort of non-sexual spiritual self that I often express to the world. I also have a pleaser persona...a "Miss Congeniality" kind of self that I can pull out on a dime to try to win approval and get ahead in life. Recently I have been contemplating at risking more self-expression in my life. I have been feeling muffled by my own day to day, automatic personas.

For a long time I have been contemplating how sexuality relates to creativity. Consider how in Eastern philosophies both creativity, sexuality and abundance issues all arise from the second chakra. If I am blocked sexually, often turning on the music and painting will open me up. If I am blocked creativity, sex always gets the energy flowing again. Consider abundance in the equation...this I am exploring now...opening up to creativity and sexuality invites irresistibility and more money begins to flow.

To be really free and empowered we need to be open in our bodies...to breathe into them....to feel everything and listen to them. This translates to being sexually open and initiatory with our energies. When I don't express all of myself - I get ill, unbalanced and out of touch with myself. If I am burned out, and closed down or distracted away from my authentic sexual energy...my life stops working well.

Recently I sent my teen daughter to a Teen Empowerment Camp and they had a sexual education day. The boys were taught to breathe into their sexual "centers" and to be a "sexual warriors" and the girls were taught to breathe their hearts and be "feminine goddesses". Is this not just a new age spin on an old theme? I wonder about where the girls are being told to put their sexual energy....and their creative energy? Staying in our hearts make us great female caregivers but where is the empowerment in that?

Here is a poem my 14 year old daughter wrote for a recent poetry reading she was invited to. I think it expresses so beautifully how girls and females of all ages feel pressured to keep it neat and nice and feminine and goddess-like perfect.

I want to do justice

To the poems folded away

The ugly ones

With the words clumsy

The ones that are speckled with dirt and blood

That are too painful to share with strangers

Folded like little secrets

Tucked away in diaries

Until courage unfolds them.

Some good questions to ask:

1.)How have you expressed your sexuality today?

2.) What would open you up sexually today, either with or without a partner>